Just Today

Today is just today.

I woke up feeling like an engine that’s running, but not quite at speed. Moving, yet sluggish. It’s a strange sensation — persistent enough to notice, but hard to pin down.

Am I moving forward? Yes.
Am I moving at the pace I want? No.

And yet, when I look at it honestly, that no doesn’t really change anything. Still, the feeling lingers. Uninvited.

I’m not sure why it matters as much as it does. Or why I feel the need to understand it rather than simply let it pass. But it’s there, and pretending otherwise doesn’t help.

Today my body feels stiff. Slow. As if nothing has shifted. But I know that isn’t true. Progress doesn’t disappear just because I can’t feel it this morning.

So I’ll train. Not to fix the feeling. Not to outrun it. Just to do the work in front of me. Pay attention. Learn what’s available to learn.

That’s enough to begin with.