Enough

Today passed largely without event.

I’m still a little sore and tight from the run — not injured, just reminded — but otherwise things are moving along quietly, without friction. No drama. No breakthrough. Just steady ground.

I made one meaningful decision today. I signed up for another six months.

It feels both long and reassuring. A stretch of time that will no doubt be demanding, but one I’m ready for. These forms still hold layers I can sense but not yet access. I’m fairly sure they’ve always been there, waiting patiently for the right combination of skill, patience, and clarity to reveal themselves.

That feels like reason enough to stay.

Loneliness is still hovering in the background. No new faces have arrived for weeks. The school feels sparse. But that space has its own value. It gives me room to deepen the relationship I began with myself the moment I committed to this path.

I’ve grown fond of the routine here. There isn’t much to do — and somehow that’s exactly right. There’s enough structure to move forward, and enough openness to reflect. Enough time to look honestly at where I’m headed, and just as importantly, at the habits that quietly trip me up along the way.

Some of them are surprisingly entertaining once you stop resisting them.

Nothing profound surfaced today. No answers announced themselves. Just the continuation of a road with no clear end in sight.

And for now, that feels sufficient.